Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by nicbou on Sunday July 13, 2025 @06:20AM
(#44549118)
The book "There is no antimemetics division" is about the team fighting an SCP antimeme. It's a really fun read and a bit of a mindf*. I strongly recommend it.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Aaargh20318 on Sunday July 13, 2025 @07:06AM
(#44549404)
Unfortunately it's no longer for sale. IIRC the writer has gotten a book deal for it, and the existing self-published version was removed from sale while the new version is being edited. According to Amazon the new revision is up for pre-order and will be available on November 11th.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Aaargh20318 on Sunday July 13, 2025 @08:59AM
(#44550133)
I'll wait for the re-release regardless. No need to jump through any hoops to get it on my Kindle plus the author gets paid for their work. Plus, I imagine it'll benefit from the work of an editor.
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by Analemma_ on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:13PM
(#44572687)
You may want to read both, they are going to be pretty different. For starters, AIUI the new published version is not going to be an SCP story, probably because of rights issues. I assume it will be "SCP with the serial numbers filed off", but we won't know for sure until it comes out. I'd read the existing one and then decide if you like it enough that you want to preorder the new one.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by bee_rider on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:32PM
(#44572939)
“SCP is the the serial numbers filed off” is sort of a funny concept. Conventionally each SCP story is considered to exist within its own canon and the author is able to pick-and-choose which other stories “exist” from its point of view, right? So there are n SCP continuities, and after the book is published there will be n+1, but that +1 is special for copyright reasons, haha.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by ASalazarMX on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @01:15PM
(#44573511)
The author's page links to the original SCP Wiki page, where you can read it in parts, as it was being created. It's not a straight book download, but you can think of each red link as a chapter.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by ASalazarMX on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @08:01PM
(#44577240)
Which link? Because the one I posted works, and it says:
> Suggested reading order is from top to bottom. For those wishing to read the book There Is No Antimemetics Division, begin with "SCP-055" and finish with "Champions of Nothing."
Checked every one of those links, which also work. I can't understand why are you... wait, what were we talking about?
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by bmacho on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:03PM
(#44572572)
SCP is CC-SA-BY anyway, so you can download it from torrent, modify it, resell it, if you want to[0]. It's basically GPL, so you can do that with anything that has any relation to an SCP (derivative of a derivative of a derivative)
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by pyrale on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:07PM
(#44572609)
My favorite one from qntm is probably Miguel Acevedo [1]. It is pretty spot on wrt. several topics related to the current AI boom ; for instance the licensing topic.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by tetris11 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:23PM
(#44572829)
Eh it starts off good, but then it delves too much into the love story between some scientist and her partner and then goes on a wild tangent related to forgotten members still existing as ghosts in the system.
It makes the same mistake Steven King did when writing the Dark Tower; it over-explains the mystery and intrigue that made the initial story (The Gunslinger) so compelling, and leans too much on its characters to carry the story.
I say the same thing about the SCP antimeme, as I say to Dark Tower readers: Read the first story, skip the rest or treat them as unrelated fanfics.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by iyn on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:32PM
(#44572941)
I'd say (agree?) that the 2nd half (roughly) of the book is much worse but IMO still worth reading the whole thing. The concept is really novel (at least it was for me) and so engaging with it can still be fun.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by garaetjjte on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @01:09PM
(#44573437)
It feels like overly forced sequel. "Your Last First Day" have definite ending, but then "Five Five Five Five Five" brings ghosts in order to have story with happy-end.
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by haiku2077 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:33PM
(#44572953)
The new version is removing the SCP universe integration, so I assume the subplot with the ghosts (a crossover with another SCP story during serialization) will be changed.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by tetris11 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @05:30PM
(#44576008)
The SCP universe is what made the antimemetics so unique though - that you had an entire forgotten department, doing heavy lifting Slow Horses style, keeping the whole operation running.
It's important because SCP is important, i.e. it borrows its greatness from the success of the normal day-to-day SCP operations.
Without it, it's just a story about amnesia at a government facility, and those kind of books are a dime a dozen.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by astrange on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @06:04PM
(#44576324)
I thought the ghosts were the strongest part because it showed the story had the confidence to continue introducing new crazier ideas, and that one was particularly crazy but still fit into the SCP world. Sort of like why people liked Three Body Problem.
The weakest parts are when it focuses too much on the antagonist, where it tends to forget the actual definition of 3125 and just makes it something/someone that causes the world to end in random wacky crazy ways.
When it gets post-apocalyptic the writing also tends to forget how travel times and geography work. (Pretty common problem with old SF, where you'd go to a "planet" and there are like, 3 people who live on the planet. In this case the remaining living protagonist somehow manages to walk between very far places on his own without needing food and such.)
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by pantalaimon on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @06:25PM
(#44576505)
I disagree, this whole new plane of existence (basically heaven) was introduced out of nothing, without anything previously in the book hinting that something like that exists in this universe.
Tbh it felt like the author had written himself into a corner and made this up ad-hoc as a way to keep the story going.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by rcxdude on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @06:35PM
(#44576598)
It felt like a tie-in to some other thread in SCP canon, TBH. It's a pretty chaotic mix of ideas and stories, so it's something that fits but might have well been written by someone else in some other part of the wiki (chasing all of these is a time sink and a half, almost as bad as tvtropes)
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Sharlin on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:30PM
(#44572911)
For those who didn't notice or didn't scroll far enough, there's a link at the bottom of SCP-55 that leads to several pages worth of extra fiction by qntm, constituting a prelude or introduction of sorts to "There is no antimemetics division".
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by pantalaimon on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:41PM
(#44573092)
IMHO it reads a bit too much like a Rick & Morty episode, the characters lack depth and it keeps pushing ever extremer events without taking the time to establish a baseline of normalcy.
The 'anti-memetic antagonist' idea is interesting, but that seems to be the only idea that's in there - the constant amnesia get's old quick and it tears reality apart way too quickly to still care.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by par1970 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @09:00PM
(#44577640)
> Sadly, the answer is that you can't.
Suppose there are two distinct entities, each such that if it is learned about, then it kills the learner, call them Geigh and Ritaar. What happens when Geigh learns about Ritaar?
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by tuatoru on Sunday July 13, 2025 @06:12AM
(#44549065)
> All of these facts are periodically rediscovered, usually by chance readers of this file, causing a great deal of alarm. This state of concern lasts minutes at most, before the matter is simply forgotten about.
So, not much different to most activist causes, then.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by dylan604 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @11:55AM
(#44572478)
An SEP is one of my favorite takeaways from the series. It's one of those that's not as well known like the babel fish or a towel, but as a teen it just really stuck with me when I first read it.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by GuinansEyebrows on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:08PM
(#44572632)
same! i think about SEP fields more than almost anything else from the trilogy. of all the clever human observations Adams made, i think that one might be one of the most damning, relevant and enduring.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by xg15 on Sunday July 13, 2025 @05:47PM
(#44554054)
This reminds me of the strange way that memories of dreams behave:
Sometimes you still remember bits from a dream right after you've woken up - but this memory somehow vanishes rapidly and is gone a few minutes later. This despite you already being awake at that time and consciously having a memory of having had that memory. Only the memory itself is gone.
(Unless one had training and could capture the memory, e.g. in a dream journal)
Makes me wonder if this hints at some interesting neurological processes: It seems there is either some process in the brain that actively erases dream memories, or that dream memories are somehow stored differently in the brain than regular memories and only appear as the same thing to the consciousness. (Sort of like some part of the directory tree being mounted on a different file system)
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by wpm on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @11:54AM
(#44572464)
I experience that but then I also experience the somewhat opposite effect, where randomly, spurred on by almost nothing at all, a memory of a dream that I knew that I had but had forgotten about, bubbles up out of nowhere. It's like some pathway to that other filesystem exists, but only gets activated due to some random glitch that is then fixed immediately, as I still won't be able to recall the dreams later on, like something is forcing it to get cleared from my normal long-term memory. Not that I can't remember dreams, I can if they are vivid enough, journals help too, but most of them get locked away in the "you'll watch the memory of this dream evaporate before your very eyes in the morning, and then years later while you're washing dishes you'll remember it vividly" box.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by praptak on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:06PM
(#44572600)
I remember having woken up from a dream where I recognised that a) I'm dreaming and b) It's the same dream I had years ago (a sequel maybe). I can't keep dreaming while being aware that I'm dreaming (supposedly you can train this skill but I haven't) so I woke up.
Obviously I don't remember what the actual dream was, just that I suddenly realised it's a dream from the distant past.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by skirmish on Wednesday July 16, 2025 @02:38AM
(#44579346)
When I was small I used to think about recent dreams while falling asleep, and then I would sometimes have sequels. One memorable dream was where I was taking a walk in the forest with my friend a giant talking cat, and wolves would start chasing us, and we would run so fast that we would start flying. This dream had 2 or 3 sequels that I remember.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Sharlin on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:21PM
(#44572799)
It's difficult to know whether these memories are real, though. I sometimes have déjà vu-like sensations of having experienced something before, but in a dream rather than in a real life (probably something similar happens to people who think they've had a precognitive dream). The feeling quickly subsides like in a regular déjà vu.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by pixl97 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @11:58AM
(#44572514)
Most of the time you have these dreams and are not woken up, so you never remember they exist at all...
Occasionally my brain likes screwing with me and in the dream it goes "You're remembering this dream, you're about to be woken up" and then a loud noise or something external will happen an wake me up and leave me with a great sense of unease.
Now, I don't believe my mind can actually predict the future. I can only assume my brain is doing this crap quite often and just happens to get it right every once in a while. Still a creepy feeling.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by bee_rider on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:43PM
(#44573119)
I’ve heard the theory somewhere that all dreams are more-or-less invented by the brain at the moment you wake up. So, your brain could just invent a narrative that ends with the loud thud that wakes you up.
Not sure if this is actually the truth, or just some random speculation, so heap of salt and all that. Also, I have no idea how to test it.
Sometimes I my significant other sleep-talks, and sometimes it is clear enough that I’ll answer (misunderstanding it to be regular talk). It is quite rare (although not unheard of) for them to remember what lead to a sleep conversation, which leads me to believe that whatever their brain is doing at night, it doesn’t have much to do with the dreams they remember. But that’s pretty dang anecdotal!
Edit: the sleep-talks they do remember could just explained by waking up in the middle of the night to find the memory of the sleep-talk in their short term memory, and then the brain retroactively spins up a dream to fit it, of course.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Sesse__ on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:20PM
(#44572782)
> It seems there is either some process in the brain that actively erases dream memories, or that dream memories are somehow stored differently in the brain than regular memories and only appear as the same thing to the consciousness.
There's a fairly simple model that is consistent with this: Nothing is committed to long-term memory while you are dreaming, so when you wake up from a dream, everything is in short-term memory only. Unless you make an active effort to commit it (which you're used to happening automatically), like writing it down or otherwise thinking hard about it, it will simply vanish once you use your short-term memory for something else, like moving around.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by munificent on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:36PM
(#44573014)
I had a similar but more intense experience. Last week, I had a minor medical procedure and they used twilight sedation with Versed (Midazolam). It causes anterograde amnesia.
With previous anaesthesia experiences I've had, it's like a slice of time is cut out. I'm going into the procedure room and the next thing I know I'm in recovery.
This time was different. When they wheeled me out to my wife, I was completely lucid (confirmed by her). I told my wife I remembered essentially the whole procedure. I can remember telling her this. But later, throughout the rest of the day, the memories faded out a piece at a time.
Now, though I just barely remember telling my wife that I remembered the procedure, I don't remember the procedure at all. In fact, I can't even remember where I was when I was talking to my wife. I don't remember the recovery room or even leaving the hospital at all. I have a very faint memory of being in the car. Even my memories of the rest of the afternoon are vague.
It is so weird. It's like the tape slowly degraded over time. I wonder if this is what dementia feels like.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by nhinck2 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:05PM
(#44572596)
Wouldn't an antimeme be something that was non-communicable?
It'd be the idea of something being perfectly memorable but when you attempt to describe it or begin in anyway to record or communicate about it your mind just goes blank, only for the memory to re-emerge some time later like a shower nightmare. Forever in your head but unable to pass onto anyone else.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by TheAceOfHearts on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:34PM
(#44572972)
The closest thing I've seen to an antimeme in real life is the explanation of a monad. Many people seem to lose the ability to explain what it is as soon as they understand it. Maybe tensors are a close second.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by southernplaces7 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @05:22PM
(#44575958)
But if you're able to tell me that a thing called a monad exists, then it's nothing like a pure antimeme, which to my mind would be self-removing from all perception in all normal contexts.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by southernplaces7 on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @05:25PM
(#44575973)
Yes but if it were to be a pure antimeme, wouldn't being able to communicate about it be irrelevant, since it would remove itself from both your memory and that of whoever described it to you, as if nobody had ever described anything? I at least see it this way, and believe that if we were ever confronted with such a thing in the real world, all references to it would be imperceptible in any normal non-momentary context.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by jjmarr on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @06:47PM
(#44576709)
That is correct. I'm pointing it out because the "non-communicability" aspect is a whole genre called "infohazards", which is any SCP triggered by or involving communication. It's a very popular tag.
You might contrast with SCP-2521 that attacks those that use written or spoken language to refer to it, so the documentation page is one giant infographic without text.[1]
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by rcxdude on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @06:40PM
(#44576634)
The basic idea of an antimeme is an idea that doesn't want to be spread or perpetuated. A secret is an example of an antimeme that actually exists, so I would say communication of the idea would also in principle be resisted. But creepy, wild sci-fi needs to go with 'what if that, but even more so?'. (though, I would also say a pure antimeme would be completely self-extinguishing. Actually the way these sci-fi antimemes work is closer to how e.g. real-life secret societies operate(d). There's a secret, and it is perpetuated within the group, but it's carefully guarded from widespread knowledge. The sci-fi idea is that the knowledge itself basically does this, somehow, to any entity not in the in-group, where the in-group is frequently non-human, maybe non-organic/non-sentient)
qntm is a fantastic writer & programmer I had the pleasure of working with on a project in the past. If you're looking for stuff to read that gets your neurons firing, there's a lot to find on their website.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by mattigames on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:11PM
(#44572667)
Slightly related: Given the lack of resources to prevent art from being absorbed by LLMs I suspect we will soon see art galleries where you cannot take photos or record anything, art strictly made to be viewed by humans only.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by zuminator on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:15PM
(#44572713)
For those like me who aren't familiar with this topic, SCP stands for Special Containment Procedures. The SCP Foundation is an online fictional shared universe hosted on https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com with various works of genre fiction in the urban paranormal/sf area, accompanied by various fake documents and bureaucratic procedures involving weird anomalies, artifacts, and creatures. SCP-055 is one such anomaly. More info on wikipedia:
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by Sharlin on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:32PM
(#44572932)
Both are correct. The former is what the containment instructions are called, the latter is what the foundation's name stands for (perhaps derived backronymically?)
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by aftbit on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @08:18PM
(#44577359)
Welcome to the wacky and wonderful world of SCP. There are some amazing tales hidden in these pages and in the narratives that sometimes accompany them. If you've ever enjoyed wasting an evening clicking around links on TV Tropes, you'll love SCP.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by gitpusher on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:36PM
(#44573011)
This is the 452nd time this has been posted on HackerNews. If you look for the older posts, you won't find them – and their authors have been erased from this dimension.
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by waffletower on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:38PM
(#44573048)
While the acronym 'SCP' is in the spirit of the imagined organization and its tools of obfuscation, its presence dilutes and homogenizes the prose significantly, much like small beer. The mantra "secure. contain. protect." is much more effective when revealed and repeated instead.
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by Salgat on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @12:55PM
(#44573261)
I'm curious how distantly related the information has to be before it is eligible for this effect. For example, if someone sees a WARNING sign on the container (with no specific information about the SCP on the warning itself), do people remember that warning sign?
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by x______________ on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @01:00PM
(#44573327)
I'm sorry but maybe it's me just waking up after a rough day, but what unworldly rabbit hole did I just read and might continue to read? (serious question)
...a story about Epstein's prison cell? (/s again sorry)
I'm going to wake up now, thanks in advance folks!
Re:SCP-055 is an "antimeme" – it erases itself from memory w...
by ayaros on Tuesday July 15, 2025 @01:41PM
(#44573818)
Qntm is a great author and deserves the support of everyone here. The antimemetics division series is the primary reason I kept following the SCP wiki for years after it had long since peaked my interest (because I was waiting for him to finish 55555, which took forever). Fine Structure is also wonderful, as was Ed.
Beware: SCP is as enthralling as TV Tropes.
https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/antimemetics-division-hub
> Suggested reading order is from top to bottom. For those wishing to read the book There Is No Antimemetics Division, begin with "SCP-055" and finish with "Champions of Nothing."
Checked every one of those links, which also work. I can't understand why are you... wait, what were we talking about?
[0] : https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/licensing-guide
[1]: https://qntm.org/mmacevedo
If you enjoyed any one of those three, then I recommend the others.
It's like four pages and it lays out the fiction better than many 400-page novels or entire films dealing with similar subject matters have, IMO.
My timing is poor. Should have taken that "sit alone" part more seriously. I have an intense need to do just that!
I can give myself some time. Unlikely to be enough.
It makes the same mistake Steven King did when writing the Dark Tower; it over-explains the mystery and intrigue that made the initial story (The Gunslinger) so compelling, and leans too much on its characters to carry the story.
I say the same thing about the SCP antimeme, as I say to Dark Tower readers: Read the first story, skip the rest or treat them as unrelated fanfics.
It's important because SCP is important, i.e. it borrows its greatness from the success of the normal day-to-day SCP operations.
Without it, it's just a story about amnesia at a government facility, and those kind of books are a dime a dozen.
The weakest parts are when it focuses too much on the antagonist, where it tends to forget the actual definition of 3125 and just makes it something/someone that causes the world to end in random wacky crazy ways.
When it gets post-apocalyptic the writing also tends to forget how travel times and geography work. (Pretty common problem with old SF, where you'd go to a "planet" and there are like, 3 people who live on the planet. In this case the remaining living protagonist somehow manages to walk between very far places on his own without needing food and such.)
Tbh it felt like the author had written himself into a corner and made this up ad-hoc as a way to keep the story going.
I thought it fit their ethos, eg these two older ones are similar.
https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/scp-963
https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/scp-2000
The 'anti-memetic antagonist' idea is interesting, but that seems to be the only idea that's in there - the constant amnesia get's old quick and it tears reality apart way too quickly to still care.
Sadly, the answer is that you can't.
Qntm's other works are criminally underrated.
Suppose there are two distinct entities, each such that if it is learned about, then it kills the learner, call them Geigh and Ritaar. What happens when Geigh learns about Ritaar?
So, not much different to most activist causes, then.
Sometimes you still remember bits from a dream right after you've woken up - but this memory somehow vanishes rapidly and is gone a few minutes later. This despite you already being awake at that time and consciously having a memory of having had that memory. Only the memory itself is gone.
(Unless one had training and could capture the memory, e.g. in a dream journal)
Makes me wonder if this hints at some interesting neurological processes: It seems there is either some process in the brain that actively erases dream memories, or that dream memories are somehow stored differently in the brain than regular memories and only appear as the same thing to the consciousness. (Sort of like some part of the directory tree being mounted on a different file system)
Obviously I don't remember what the actual dream was, just that I suddenly realised it's a dream from the distant past.
Occasionally my brain likes screwing with me and in the dream it goes "You're remembering this dream, you're about to be woken up" and then a loud noise or something external will happen an wake me up and leave me with a great sense of unease.
Now, I don't believe my mind can actually predict the future. I can only assume my brain is doing this crap quite often and just happens to get it right every once in a while. Still a creepy feeling.
Not sure if this is actually the truth, or just some random speculation, so heap of salt and all that. Also, I have no idea how to test it.
Sometimes I my significant other sleep-talks, and sometimes it is clear enough that I’ll answer (misunderstanding it to be regular talk). It is quite rare (although not unheard of) for them to remember what lead to a sleep conversation, which leads me to believe that whatever their brain is doing at night, it doesn’t have much to do with the dreams they remember. But that’s pretty dang anecdotal!
Edit: the sleep-talks they do remember could just explained by waking up in the middle of the night to find the memory of the sleep-talk in their short term memory, and then the brain retroactively spins up a dream to fit it, of course.
There's a fairly simple model that is consistent with this: Nothing is committed to long-term memory while you are dreaming, so when you wake up from a dream, everything is in short-term memory only. Unless you make an active effort to commit it (which you're used to happening automatically), like writing it down or otherwise thinking hard about it, it will simply vanish once you use your short-term memory for something else, like moving around.
With previous anaesthesia experiences I've had, it's like a slice of time is cut out. I'm going into the procedure room and the next thing I know I'm in recovery.
This time was different. When they wheeled me out to my wife, I was completely lucid (confirmed by her). I told my wife I remembered essentially the whole procedure. I can remember telling her this. But later, throughout the rest of the day, the memories faded out a piece at a time.
Now, though I just barely remember telling my wife that I remembered the procedure, I don't remember the procedure at all. In fact, I can't even remember where I was when I was talking to my wife. I don't remember the recovery room or even leaving the hospital at all. I have a very faint memory of being in the car. Even my memories of the rest of the afternoon are vague.
It is so weird. It's like the tape slowly degraded over time. I wonder if this is what dementia feels like.
maybe it could be the extreme case of state-dependent memory?
<https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/State-dependent_memory>
It'd be the idea of something being perfectly memorable but when you attempt to describe it or begin in anyway to record or communicate about it your mind just goes blank, only for the memory to re-emerge some time later like a shower nightmare. Forever in your head but unable to pass onto anyone else.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2FP-T6S1x0
Like, you can't learn to drive a car or play a violin by reading a book about it.
There are SCPs that affect communication:
https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/taboo
You might contrast with SCP-2521 that attacks those that use written or spoken language to refer to it, so the documentation page is one giant infographic without text.[1]
[1] https://scp-wiki.wikidot.com/scp-2521
https://qntm.org/mmacevedo
https://qntm.org/structure
https://qntm.org/hatetris
qntm is a fantastic writer & programmer I had the pleasure of working with on a project in the past. If you're looking for stuff to read that gets your neurons firing, there's a lot to find on their website.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/SCP_Foundation
...a story about Epstein's prison cell? (/s again sorry)
I'm going to wake up now, thanks in advance folks!