I'm sorry that happened. I'm curious what was it that made you suicidal?

How did you come out it after those 4 years?

There seems to be quite the story around this one sentence and a very rough time. Though I think there are perhaps some learnings for other people as well if you're willing to share.

Childhood trauma that I didn’t know was affecting me. I thought I hard perfect set and setting

Lots of intense therapy, I still go 3 times a week

I had no suicidal feeling before the drug. I suppose one way to put it is that seeing into the void made me take suicide seriously as an option