Re:What Happens When Clergy Take Psilocybin
by bowsamic on Tuesday June 17, 2025 @12:14AM
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Good for you. I was suicidal for 4 years after my LSD trips
Re:What Happens When Clergy Take Psilocybin
by shinryuu on Tuesday June 17, 2025 @01:52AM
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I'm sorry that happened. I'm curious what was it that made you suicidal?
How did you come out it after those 4 years?
There seems to be quite the story around this one sentence and a very rough time. Though I think there are perhaps some learnings for other people as well if you're willing to share.
Re:What Happens When Clergy Take Psilocybin
by bowsamic on Tuesday June 17, 2025 @02:05AM
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Childhood trauma that I didn’t know was affecting me. I thought I hard perfect set and setting
Lots of intense therapy, I still go 3 times a week
I had no suicidal feeling before the drug. I suppose one way to put it is that seeing into the void made me take suicide seriously as an option
When I was in college, I tracked down some mushrooms, bought em, and ran away on my own to trip out. I found myself on a bench, next to a river surrounded by trash in a mixed industrial area. I saw cig butts and empty beer cans on the ground. Looked at my ripped jeans and thought "Am I trash? Why am I here?" It was a shitty feeling and I got really down. I realized that getting fucked up for its own sake was stupid, and it's about sharing time with others that's actually important, no matter what drug you're on. I started crying and felt horrible, but the next day, I had a new sense of worth and a new frame of reference for the world that has persisted for 20+ years. I'll always remember that shitty trip on that shitty bench.