I've thought that it's just escapist fantasy before, and in fact there was a period of a few years where I firmly told myself "I don't actually want to make games anymore, I will never do it" but I keep coming back to the idea.

The truth is that making games is what I want to do, but I don't want to sacrifice to do it. The industry is notoriously brutal to get into and have a career progression in, so I avoided it after university.

So really the only way I would make games is either solo or on an indie team, but those paths are similarly brutal.

So it remains a dream. But maybe if I weren't so tired all the time, working a bit in my evenings and weekends wouldn't feel like such a sacrifice.