I eventually did a Master's degree in infosec. Spent a while developing security products, then moved over fully into security architecture. That's been ten years now and I'm getting itchy feet again!

But don't beat yourself up over playing games, if that's what you do to relax. You can't be on all the time. I go though phases of just going my job, then I get enthused by something. I'd honestly just find another job in the short term that gives you the opportunity to grow in some way.