Well game development would be awesome, but that industry doesn't treat developers right. I also want to make enough money, which the gaming industry lacks. So that's not a feasible option.

Maybe working on some VR/AR tech, or at some Antivirus company.

I did some OverTheWire exercises, and was learning about creating viruses. But, I ultimately ended up playing a lot of Dota.

Yep, game development doesn't have a good reputation.

I eventually did a Master's degree in infosec. Spent a while developing security products, then moved over fully into security architecture. That's been ten years now and I'm getting itchy feet again!

But don't beat yourself up over playing games, if that's what you do to relax. You can't be on all the time. I go though phases of just going my job, then I get enthused by something. I'd honestly just find another job in the short term that gives you the opportunity to grow in some way.