You're in your 20s, live with mommy and want to start a company in a field you have no skills, education, ability or training in. Sit down.

Get a job and move out.

If you can't find a job, you're not looking hard enough.

Your 'grinding' is just life. Going to the gym and reading is the absolute bare minimum baseline.

It also shows you have nothing else going on otherwise you wouldn't put such emphasis on nothing. It's like saying you get dressed every day, ok and?

Quit with your 'circle' bullshit, you're trying to focus on other people instead of yourself. It dilutes what little effort you're making (and is literal textbook projection, your friends are doing just fine, you project onto them).

You have zero social skills, 'small talk' (human interaction) is stupidly important.

Find a tech meetup (or any subject you're actually passionate about, don't chase the money) It's trite, but do what you love and the money finds you, meet a girl, make friends.

Maybe most importantly, dump your lists and your 20/80 shit. Just live your life. Everything happens if you let it.