Weaponizing this is unhealthy. It doesn't end well. The reason normal people can't do X and an addict can is because an addict is making egregious trade-offs.
"I know I'm going to mess up my shoulder for the rest of my life, but I'm going to bench heavy anyway"
"I know I haven't seen my kids in a month, but I'm going to shut myself away and work on my side business anyway"
It's collapsing your entire life into a single, simplistic max/min function. It's a quick path to misery.
In any case, there is some real wisdom in Peter Pan, but it was completely lost on me as a child.
"A human being is a synthesis of the infinite and the finite, of the temporal and the eternal, of freedom and necessity, in short, a synthesis."
Health is balance.
I also have mild OCD. And I’m not depressed, but i get bored very easily and very fast.
The key for me is also habits, diversion, and moderation. I have an easy time forming habits because of OCD so I just have to prune bad ones, easier said than done. I also keep track of how i feel, and just naturally feel bad if i eat too much or sleep late, which seems to subconsciously make me not want to do those things, so i don’t have to use as much willpower.
20+ years later I still workout almost every single day. I think about how easy it could have been to take a far worse path, but exercise has been my savior. To paraphrase Henry Rollins, 225# is always 225# no matter what else is happening in your life. It is the great constant.
feeling bad works a little in reducing various cravings,
but my brain seems to have a way of fading my bad memories somewhat
edit: typo
but I feel like almost anything food/ drink could be a drug (to me), since if I like it, it makes me want to crave it - for many days/ weeks after.
I agree. It's incredible the lengths that people will go to separate drugs and alcohol.
I always like to phrase it like this ...
If you took alcohol in a pill form, are you drinking or taking drugs?
The “haircut” where you pour a mixer into your mouth, someone pours liquor into your mouth, and then you swallow in a way such that the liquor doesn’t touch your mouth or throat is the closest thing to an “alcohol pill” I can think of. Come to think of it, shots plus chasers are somewhat “pill like” too
I've analsysed this for sometime and the best (for me) way of dealing with it is to keep track of every thing I do or I like.
"The power of habit" book helped a lot with my ability to control my addictions