Glad to hear you're also feeling better these days :)
Vamachara stuff is forbidden and can lead to extremely dangerous reverse effects.
I think the site where I got it doesn't exist any more. I think I have a copy in my own archives somewhere.
The basic gist of the practices was a combination of various asanas, mantras, pranayama and visualisation.
It was so much cooler.
Kind of like how self harm is forbidden. Vamamarga is psychological self harm, in a sense. Aghoris then take that same principle to the next level.
The problem is people fetishize, or in other ways make arguments and ideas about Indian origin things within the context of religion. That has in my opinion done far more harm in understanding the philosophical approaches of Dharma than any other misconception, including translation errors.
Even if someone had told me that it was risky, I still would have had the attitude of, thanks, but I need to find this out for myself from experience rather than just take your word for it.
So again, the point here is that it's important to be knowledgeable about whatever subject matter that you're taking part in, not least because of being respectful, but because that way whatever task is being undertaken can be done "correctly". Including, perhaps especially, if you have belief in occult ideas.
this thread reads like an H.P. Lovecraft or Dan Brown novel. Please keep this thread alive, it's fascinating!
They'll mess you up.
In occultism, "left hand path" means black magic. So it would be the "right hand path" followers who forbid practice vamachara.
Basically, by definition it is about breaching Hindu societal taboos, unless I am vastly misunderstanding this brief summary.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Left-hand_path_and_right-hand_...
It isn't obvious that asanas, breathing exercises, mantras and visualisation are somehow breaching any taboos of any society that I know of ;)
Why do we consider those seriously while making fun of LaVey's rituals?
After three weeks, it culminated in an auditory hallucination that was indistinguishable from telepathy. Then the mania suddenly drained and never came back however often I repeated the exercises.
Years later, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but it's usually fairly mild, with hypomania and mixed states which get worse when under stress. Nothing was ever again as intense as the meditation-induced mania of 2004.