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Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:20AM (#24186942)
Meditation is a blade with no hilt.

I _accidentally_ fell into a vipassana state of mind after the first time trying a particular religious chant, seriously, from out of the pains of boredom as a 20 year old.

At the time I lived nearby mountains, and after 'coming to', I saw them through the window. I cannot describe to you the overwhelming feeling of beauty and awe that crashed over me. It was as though this was the very first time I had ever seen mountains. I think the best description I can manage comes from 'Both Sides Now' by Joni Mitchell.

'I've looked at clouds from both sides now From up and down, and still somehow It's cloud illusions I recall I really don't know clouds at all'

The experience was so disorienting. As if I was seeing the mountains for what they were directly through my senses and not mediated by my knowledge of what mountains were like, linguistically.

It changed my entire life -- weeks later later I lost my job and fell into a 5 year extreme depression / anxiety spell in the attempt to reconcile my adolescent religious upbringing with the continued insight from that experience. Absolutely worthwhile, in hindsight, but it cost me near everything for it.

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by wrnr on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:59AM (#24187258)
I recently got bored and started to practice my vocal cords by sustaining a single tone. Turn out it is good technique for getting into a meditative state. I think it is the controlled breathing and single focus on one thing that helps to bring it about. Thought it was fun, but my neighbours must think that I have lost it.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @10:02AM (#24187284)
Oooooooooooooooooooooohm.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by dTal on Monday August 17, 2020 @11:09AM (#24188003)
Or "kaaaayyyyyyyy ooooooooooooooooohm" if you want to be zazen a thousand times faster!

ducks

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by wrnr on Monday August 17, 2020 @01:57PM (#24189845)
Yea, I think a pattern that modulates between two vowels works best, like OoohWaaaOoohm. I think you find this in many religions, for example the call to prayer, but I don't want to be shouting Alla, neighbours will call the police for sure.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by nitrogen on Tuesday August 18, 2020 @12:38AM (#24195314)
Is this a metric EE joke?
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by AnthonBerg on Monday August 17, 2020 @12:52PM (#24189038)
I can't help but see some of the beauty you saw in the mountains in your post maybe.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by TurkishPoptart on Monday August 17, 2020 @07:21PM (#24193462)
Holy shit. You need to write more of this. I wish to subscribe to your newsletter.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by chromatin on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:27AM (#24186990)
Great comment, although Judy Collins’ recording (which came first) is far better than Joni Mitchell’s :)
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by mordechai9000 on Monday August 17, 2020 @12:04PM (#24188495)
I agree, it's far better than her studio version. But Joni Mitchell wrote the song. There's a video on YouTube of her performing it live, and it sounds a lot like the Judy Collins version, strangely enough.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:40AM (#24187091)
Ha, thanks for the history lesson. :)
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by charliemil4 on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:27AM (#24186994)
How did you get out of the tailspin? It’s quite hard to “pull up” when there is nothing that feels grounded...
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @09:51AM (#24187182)
There was no pulling up. And there was no ground beneath my feet. Just an endless ocean with no points of reference by which to orient oneself.

So the only course of action was not to search for rocks to cling to, but of learning how to swim, and dive in. As backwards as it may read, I only felt secure after having let go of myself.

As odd as this description may sound to someone who has not experienced this, it is instantly recognizable to those who have -- which helped discover others who traversed this before. It so happens that Buddhists have a rich tradition for navigating these waters, which helped satisfy my intellectual curiosity of what was happening. To know that I was not 'defective' but merely in an initial stage of 'unlearning' was a big jolt of positively to my psychology.

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by charliemil4 on Monday August 17, 2020 @11:16AM (#24188070)
Thank you for the amazing and thoughtful help - it feels like I need to go down for a long nap.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by totetsu on Tuesday August 18, 2020 @02:24AM (#24195821)
Like when you lose your gopro in the surf and you don't have any goggles on.
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by kanyethegreat on Monday August 17, 2020 @11:49AM (#24188337)
> that Buddhists have a rich tradition for navigating these waters

What topics could I read about to learn more about this?

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @12:55PM (#24189066)
I highly recommend as an introduction Alan Watt's 'The Way of Zen', that covers, in great detail, the cultural background, history and practice of Buddhism, in its prominent forms, and its roots in India / Hinduism -- all of which are necessary to comprehend even basic 'traditional' buddhist literature, after having become so institutionalized over the centuries as to have obscure many of the original, and plain to state, insights with now archaic ways of thinking but nevertheless have been maintained essentially untouched.

Then, follow your nose through the bibliography. =)

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by Mo3 on Monday August 17, 2020 @03:13PM (#24190711)
Yep, that rings a bell. :)

All the best to you.

Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by wavepruner on Monday August 17, 2020 @01:00PM (#24189134)
What was the chant?
Re:Mindfulness and meditation can worsen depression and anxiety by JesseMeyer on Monday August 17, 2020 @03:43PM (#24191088)
A simple 4 note repeating melody of the word, in pieces, 'Hal.le.lu.jah'. Forget where I learned it from.