Jesus... When you put it this way ...lsd kind of... Sort of saved my life (quite a reach but I was 100% no idea what or why anything was and just trying to have fun and have friends to avoid painful self truths). Finding a a way to detach yet still seeing yourself. .. it is beyond. I want it again but don't want to be so...

There is a also an iffy side to LSD which I only discovered the last time I did it 2 years ago. Never had a similar feeling ever. Vaguely felt like I wasnt seeing and thinking from the same brain / identity I'm used to. So I approximately said no more.

Anyway... I deeply appreciate the reply here too. Had no idea what to expect here. Thank you.