solo-burned

I am really planning on giving her more attention. My mind is blocked in my startup, so it is very difficult for me to disconnect and be 100% with her whenever we are spending time together.

And regarding my venture: I can not let my baby go. I must do anything I can to save it. It is a part of me.

I have bought into this mantra that by putting lots of effort into it, something will come out of it. This is not working out for the moment.

So yes, you are right, I am doing a more strict office schedule than when I was working for other people. I hope this will pay out some day.

I suppose that part of the problem is that I hate to talk about my failures with other people. I also hate to talk about successes: I am more of the "see what I have accomplished" kind - I like to show things, not to talk about them. But showing failures is very awkward.

My family and friends are correctly guessing that I am not having a great time, but I am quite dismissive about it. And I manage to avoid talking about it because in general I am quite a positive person, and I still manage to have fun when I am with people (mostly). I have just this very important thing (to me), which is failing and dragging me down with it.

Thanks for your prayers (I am atheist, but thanks anyway). We are geographically closer that what my article suggests, but I prefer to keep it vague.

I stay mostly away, but sometimes being with friends and having fun leads to too much drinking. Nothing excessive, specially because I do it very seldom. If I was going out regularly, the problem would be serious.

Point 2 is very good advice. I will try that.

Point 3 will make my girlfriend happy, and give me some sanity back. I must definitely do that.