Yeah, IMHO it's good to learn quickly that other people's perceptions of you - if they don't achieve results that you need them to, don't matter. Making sure you are happy is the most important thing. Trying to make people you don't respect respect you and is also kind of a terrible thing to force yourself to do, it feels like selling your soul every single second. It's worse when the people you are trying to get to respect you already don't, so it's better to drop the illusion. Care about helping people who care that you are helping them.