So, the fact that I would speculate that the fundamental make-up of the cosmos might (not "must" as you mis-quote) be related to how consciousness is an emergent property of the cosmos is bizarre?

I think your discounting of such questioning and speculation is bizarre.

Consciousness is either entirely made up of "particle physics" or it is made from something even further into the field of speculation. Why would speculating about a connection between particle physics and consciousness be remotely "bizarre"? It seems quite likely to me that quantum mechanics is at least in some way involved in consciousness, given that that quantum physics governs the behavior of the matter of our brains.

I feel exactly the same way.

It makes things seem obscure and that's where guys like Deepak Chopra come in.