I've stopped caring for my various lamps. I turn on the bright panel out of habit while working at my desk... but I don't feel "drawn" to it as before. I'd, for example, set my phone to the highest brightness in a dark room to motivate myself to get out of bed, or at least get to the light switch. Now I don't care, I just get up.

And I can look at the dark world outside the kitchen windows in the morning and not feel oppressed. It's just a lack of light, no menacing presence.