Ah, man, I feel for you. It has been years since my grandmother passed, but I still sometimes wake up screaming at night. This kind of thing would be torture for me. I avoid all things big tech - but the dates of the events themselves are still emblazoned in my mind. I hope some day we are both able to look back and just remember they loved us and we loved them... Until then, stay strong. I hope the saying "time heals all wounds" is accurate... Because I haven't seen it as of yet.