I feel like it's similar to your strength. From your writing I gather you've had more than your share of bad days, emotionally, during this ordeal. But you're still here, still writing, still posting here, talking to random strangers on the internet. And you and your wife's drive to document all this so others can better navigate the clinical trial process in the future... yeah, absolutely, this is strength, and a lot of it, even if you don't feel strong.

Anyhow, for what it's worth, know that there are random people on the internet who follow your story from afar, and that we're rooting for you.