I have a good therapist so these are not huge issues anymore, but I wanted to share the experience. That it really is just a question of incentives.
Simulations work for some, though. But they don't work for others, and this is what I wanted to hopefully make a bit more understandable.
I used to only go out to do grocery shopping, but then I started exercising by cycling, and now, when I don't get out near the woods for three days, I get a real crisis. After breathing in fresh air for 30 mins or so I feel much, much better.
Part of it is my general disdain for humidity, bright light, and temperature excursions. I hate being too cold or too hot, and the sun is almost always far too bright for me. I can’t imagine wanting to go outdoors or preferring it to being indoors, with the single exception of the mojave desert at night in the summer.
I wish I could live deep underground, or in space.