I play a lot of different RPGs, and honestly I think D&D is one of the worst ones. Even games that are difficult and you can die, something like Runequest or Warhammer Fantasy, or the OSRs like Adventuer Conquer King, or Lamentations of the Flame Princess, or Mork Borg. They are just more fun and do a better job at doing what D&D tries to be. If you want something more narrative focused plenty of games like Blades in the Dark or Apocalypse World or many others can do again a better job.