> There's a very particular pain you get when you know you had something and you lost it; or worse, you know you threw it away.
CONSOLATION GROOK
Losing one glove is certainly painful, but nothing compared to the pain, of losing one, throwing away the other, and finding the first one again.
--Piet Hein https://www.phys.ufl.edu/~thorn/grooks.html
It may be related to too good of a memory, or autism, or whatever, but there are parts of my life where I have way too good a memory for everything I have and had, and other parts where I'm like "yeah I got a lot of something like that, but who cares".