Re:People who die by suicide want to stop suffering, not to ...
by jfoutz on Saturday May 20, 2023 @10:51AM
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Analogy and metaphor all break down. I have some experience with addiction, but as you say, I can't really compare my experience with others.
Have you ever solved a really hard problem? From my experience, finding a compiler bug in closed source tooling is really the only thing that has the same flavor. First, if you're lucky, you notice something is wrong with the compiler. You spend months and months trying to reproduce the issue trying to narrow down what triggers this bizarre edge case. You exhaust all of the straightforward ideas, sit at your desk and question you career choice. There are days where you wonder where ideas come from, and why no new ideas are coming.
Now my problems were, are I guess, small compared to others. It's sorta like finding a compiler bug, but it's in your own head. I went through similar roiling emotions frustration and spending a good amount of time being lost wondering if there's any way forward. Unfortunately, the broken tools are all I have to try to fix things.
I, as you say, can not know what other people are going through. they've got their own compiler bugs. They have to find their own balance of emotions and interest and paths forward.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this. I guess, maybe recognize that we all have blind spots and flaws. The parent poster's phrasing is different. The parent poster, and myself, and you have cobbled together a way to live in the world with flawed tools. You're seeking precision and clarity, and I suspect over a long conversation, you and the parent poster could come to some sort of consensus about what everything means. The phrasing is a side-effect of the person they've built themselves into.
Or, maybe, they're just a fucking asshole. But I'd encourage giving the most charitable reading. It's hard to decode the meaning, but I think there's some meaning there. Look for the parts that are useful, and discard the rest. Some of it is just noise, because it's a side effect of the person they built themselves into, and the person you built yourself into.
Have you ever solved a really hard problem? From my experience, finding a compiler bug in closed source tooling is really the only thing that has the same flavor. First, if you're lucky, you notice something is wrong with the compiler. You spend months and months trying to reproduce the issue trying to narrow down what triggers this bizarre edge case. You exhaust all of the straightforward ideas, sit at your desk and question you career choice. There are days where you wonder where ideas come from, and why no new ideas are coming.
Now my problems were, are I guess, small compared to others. It's sorta like finding a compiler bug, but it's in your own head. I went through similar roiling emotions frustration and spending a good amount of time being lost wondering if there's any way forward. Unfortunately, the broken tools are all I have to try to fix things.
I, as you say, can not know what other people are going through. they've got their own compiler bugs. They have to find their own balance of emotions and interest and paths forward.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this. I guess, maybe recognize that we all have blind spots and flaws. The parent poster's phrasing is different. The parent poster, and myself, and you have cobbled together a way to live in the world with flawed tools. You're seeking precision and clarity, and I suspect over a long conversation, you and the parent poster could come to some sort of consensus about what everything means. The phrasing is a side-effect of the person they've built themselves into.
Or, maybe, they're just a fucking asshole. But I'd encourage giving the most charitable reading. It's hard to decode the meaning, but I think there's some meaning there. Look for the parts that are useful, and discard the rest. Some of it is just noise, because it's a side effect of the person they built themselves into, and the person you built yourself into.