Re:What to do when you 've ruined your life
by scruple on Saturday January 21, 2023 @01:38PM
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Exact same experience here. When I was in my early 20s. It derailed my life completely at the time but everything got back on track in a couple of years.
Re:What to do when you 've ruined your life
by pea on Saturday January 21, 2023 @04:31PM
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Exactly same experience here when I was about 14, from a single time taking mushrooms.
Like the OP, I was convinced at the time I had some irreparable damage, as I was so seeing after-images and static on walls and felt extremely disassociated/anxious, but it was probably more garden variety anxiety than I admitted at the time. Constantly fixating on your thoughts because you think you're losing it is enough to make life pretty stressful. I got therapy and slowly forgot about it.
I still have some HPPD symptoms, but interestingly those (and the anxiety) only started after I began looking for them after reading about them online a week or two after the incident, so I've always been curious if anyone can turn off their brain's filter enough to notice them if they tried.
I took a heroic shroom dose and had a life alteringly bad experience. It left me a shell of my former self dealing with crippling anxiety and worse for years.
It got better with time, therapy, and focusing on health and wellness.
Professional help can really be a major catalyst for healing.
I have now fully recovered, feel better than ever and have a great life.
People must realize there is always light at the end of the tunnel.