I used to have night terrors as a kid and I can relate to that feeling of not wanting to go to bed. I'm not sure if they're genetic or not -- my father grew up during the Algerian revolution, so it's hard to tell if his nightmares are just an artifact of being terrorized by French colonists.

I also had a period of getting panic attacks in my early 20s. One thing that was/has been super helpful for my anxiety and general well being was starting a daily meditation practice. The Tibetan teacher Mingyur Rinpoche also had an anxiety disorder and had panic attacks as a child, and is a very clear teacher, if you're ever looking for someone to explore that with. I had had a lot of meditation experience before starting it, but I found his `Joy of Living` course to be very good (if a little basic at first). [1][2]

[1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m38SwUKZZJw

[2] https://joy.tergar.org/