Thanks for your comment and advice. That makes sense and I think I understand - if I want to achieve something then it takes discipline and motivation will not always exist for me to rely on. But the part I’m struggling with is why try to achieve it / do good work to begin with.

I think I’m overcomplicating things. If I want to do good work and clearly not doing good work doesn’t make me feel good, maybe it’s enough to understand that doing better work will make me feel better and that’s enough motivation in itself. Kind of like how the amateur runner doesn’t run to win a medal but because they see it’s good for them and that makes them happy.