Same, I’ve often had suicidal thoughts since I live alone. And it may not just be living alone, the intensity of the thought is surprising.
I’ve always eaten yoghurt and mill everyday in quantity, and a little cheese works well, but it’s only when I eat a quantity of cheese that I stare in the void for hours with 99% of my neurons off - Could the liver turn “depression mode=on, burn all neurons” when saturated in fats?
If I accidentally eat some dairy, starting about 2 days later and lasting for a few days, I'll feel really terrible about myself and like there is no hope. Often times there's some suicidal thoughts in there too. Absolutely not worth it.