> I call him with a first name basis because he's probably the person I know best outside my very best friends and my own family. I've been following and listening to him for a decade now and I know his personality well.

You deny that your admiration for Elon Musk is because of a "cult," but this sounds very cult-like. Have you considered that Elon Musk is not the only person who can make you a better engineer?