You're going too meta. Does it make you happy to write it? Does it fulfill its purpose? If yes, don't worry how it looks, it is fine.
To some of us the "does it make you happy" and how it looks are intrinsically linked.
One of the things that makes me happy is to write beautiful code.
Did you type this from a Mac?
But some languages do not leak knowledge in this way.
There is the concept of beauty in programming languages that the expression of an idea should be succinct. This J code might be beautiful, but unsure.