I agree -- it's pretty clear to me that the author has found a difference between their work, which they still find enjoyment from (perhaps because they are good at it?), and their non-work life.

I can relate somewhat -- I love tech -- robotics, in particular -- but have lately become a bit disappointed with the current state it in product world. Thankfully I'm also in a state where I can reflect upon why I feel that way, and then muster the energy to do something about it.

Perhaps this is a reflection upon the age of the author too. I suspect as I get older, I'm going to want towards more "wholesome" things -- as I define that word.

That being said, to each their own.

Yeah it's more like, "Here's why I was pushed away from what I used to really like."