Re:Ask HN: Feeling guilty for doing the bare minimum at work
by eyelidlessness on Tuesday June 22, 2021 @09:14PM
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Not to get into the other details but I’m finally getting over my fear of admitting I don’t read. Here’s what I’ve realized:
I’m always reading all of the time [zizek.gif]. I’m reading code, documentation, release notes, emails and texts… from the moment I wake til I sleep.
Put an interesting book in front of me and, well, I’m interested but getting my brain into a place where it can take in new reading sources is like getting my body in a place to take up running right after walking my dog. Not gonna happen.
And I’m not ashamed of it.
Which type? I have ADHD-PI diag at 38, but it maybe a direct consequence of low testosterone.
It's interesting that the major parts of my body are very masculine while others aren't as much as they were. And, it's not Klinefelter's or a karyotype issue. Attractive members of my preferred gender for adult activities are frequently "shouting" overt interest nonverbally that doesn't register to me as anything other than a potential threat. My instincts should be of curiosity, delight, and novelty.
Starting on clomid tomorrow because the memory, concentration, alertness, and fluid/crystalized intelligences became disabled to the point where I cannot work. I may also have to take hCG too. An endocrinologist has to research the primary cause because it could be an HPG tumor or something else, because the low T issue is absurd.