I stick to my point and tbh you should talk to a doctor or get a diagnosis from someone deeply familiar with the dsm and not self diagnose and self treat. fwiw I can appreciate you're carrying emotional pain and suffering and it's common we throw around the word "depression" casually to describe this stuff but I don't think you're clinically depressed until it starts overriding your executive function .. it's all a scale of course and you could be heading in a direction so either way talking to a doctor would be good for you
“Depression affects all personalities and can look very different in various people,” says Jodi Aman, psychotherapist and author of “You 1, Anxiety 0: Win Your Life Back from Fear and Panic.”
“A highly functioning person can be suffering invisibly too,” she says.
https://www.healthline.com/health/depression/this-is-what-hi...