yes, its our mortality that is increasingly becoming a bitter pill to swallow. i was born in a hindu faith that subscribes to the notion of reincarnation of the immortal soul. i find it very comforting.

i havent done much in this lifetime. the idea that i can carry over this life experience to another meaningful lifetime..like a bank balance..is very alluring. i want very much for it to be true.

if a 'soul' is 'immortal', why do physical bodies..and by extension, memories have an expiration date. why doesn't my life experiences have any lofty meaning?

what is the value of rationalism if it doesnt offer me peace?

Not for me.

eternity frightned me and it gives me a good feeling to know, that my life will end and i'm not forced to life forever.

Living forever becomes a prison in my opinion if you can't stop living.

I have one life, i will live it, thats it.

I guess what I have now is a kind of HUNGER that I can’t quite describe.

of all "spiritual" beliefs, eternal recurrence seems to make the most sense to me. not in the hindu sense, but the idea that that an infinite number of universes could occur and that the matter that makes up your consciousness could configure itself again to give you the experience of living and sense of self that you have now doesn't seem that far fetched.