I completely understand the sentiment and I'm mostly there too to be honest. The one thing I fight to keep sight of is that there have to be more people just like me out there. People who deeply appreciate FLOSS work, who use it all the time, who's life has been greatly improved by it, who are willing to pay for it when they find something that is valuable, who learn lots of valuable design/implementation lessons from it by studying/hacking on the code.

For those people I don't want to hide my code. Please consider a "source available" approach (at least for the "core").