This reminds me of that Wait but Why post [0] about picking your life partner. TL;DR: it is better to have no one than to be around people that you're not happy with. I know this sounds like a cliche but it is true. You're not at the bottom of the scale right now, but in the middle. The upside is that now you have the chance to pick whatever floats your boat without carrying the baggage around.

[0]:https://waitbutwhy.com/2014/02/pick-life-partner.html