I just can't relate to this mindset that is oriented around optimizing company success. I'm more focused on my own success.

My peak throughput isn't necessarily there for the company's taking. I guard it as my greatest secret. My manager only gets 2 signals from me regarding load: It's good..or I'm overloaded. Never the truth when I'm underloaded if everyone's happy - that would just be harming myself for some company's benefit.