In general, sleep paralysis can be 'cured' by wiggling an extremity. Trying to move the large muscles will almost never succeed, but wiggling toes, the nose, blinking an eye are all worth trying. Almost always, these small motions help trigger the body to realize it's no longer sleeping and should do the biochemistry to stop paralyzing the large muscles.
It's quite possible than I'm just twitching a finger or toe when I do that initial effort though :)
But over time I learned to kind of enjoy it. It's a funny situation where you're totally aware and yet can't control anything in your body. It's like being a pure spirit!
I can now then stay in that state for some time, and then choose to either fall back asleep, or wake up entirely. But waking up demands a huge force of will, like "pushing" consciousness out of your mind and into your body. Usually I simply let go.
In my experience it's horrible.
When I’m conscious of what is happening, I notice that I no longer have a physical sense of where my leg is. Or maybe it’s my arm. Or maybe just part of an extremity. It’s not tingling, but there is no conscious connection between that part of my body and my brain.
I can wiggle my fingers or toes or whatever, and then I will immediately be able to sense that it is still connected and where it is, but then I can stop wiggling my fingers or toes, and let that connection drop back away quickly.
I’m forcing the conditions where my body slowly paralyzes itself to sleep, and stops stimulating my brain, so that the brain can finally go to sleep.
Waking up from a deep sleep, I have to go through the reverse process. I cannot wake up quickly and easily. If it has to be quick (like I’m late for something), then it has to be pretty violent. If I want it to be easy, then it takes at least a half hour of slowly waking up different body parts until I can finally be awake enough to sit up in bed.
And if I have to wake up too quickly, it’s easier for me to lose my balance if I have to physically move quickly — like picking up a second cat that has managed to snuck into the bedroom, when I already have one cat in the other hand. The result is that I fall to the floor, and hopefully don’t squish either cat. Then I can lay there for a couple of minutes, get my bearings, figure out if I’m actually injured or just feeling minor pain from bruising, and then get back up and get on with the rest of the morning.
Our cats are really good at snucking into the bedroom when they’re not supposed to be there, but so far the falling part has only happened once.
So, where most fear sleep paralysis, I for one welcome it. It’s the only way I can regularly get to sleep at all.
The first time I somehow recognized it for what it was and closed my eyes and just went back to sleep.
The second time, it 100% felt like someone crawled on top of me and was suffocating me with a pillow. It was dark, I couldn't move, absolutely terrifying experience overall.
Several times it has felt like someone was present. One of the first time I can remember the feeling of someone or something being present was maybe a decade ago or two or something. It felt like a dark shadow person standing in the corner of my room, by the door just looking at me while I was unable to move. Very creepy feeling.
Recently, I thought someone was sitting on top of me and pushing me very hard down into my bed. And I was like wtf, why is someone trying to murder me and I was very scared. And then I realized that lol it’s just sleep paralysis yet again. Still felt shaken for a while afterwards.
Sleep paralysis sucks, so I try to avoid it. Sometimes I get into a bad rhythm though and then it is increasingly probable that it will happen.
Things like the feeling of someone on your back grasping you and talking into your ear while trying to fall asleep. Sitting up awake in the morning and seeing fully formed objects floating in the room like a floating filing cabinet, fully formed person in the room not a "Shadowperson". Auditory ones usually happen as you're falling asleep and its all voices you know sorta talking gibberish sentences.
Around the same period of time it started I also began having lucid dreams too, generally always had a bit of trouble sleeping.
Since then I’ve had decent luck forcing myself awake by using what little control I have to mess with my own breathing until I “wake up” but the whole process sucks, and usually makes me feel like I’m dying.
Once I managed to wiggle my pinky against my wife and she realized what was happening and woke me up fully.
One possibility is maybe I am slowly developing narcolepsy, because both sleep paralysis and these hypnagogic hallucinations are symptoms of it. I sometimes feel sort of sleepy especially around 4 pm and I usually just take some coffeine. I don't know if I have cataplexy, certainly not the severe form, but I think that I get weakness in the knees under influence of strong emotions which according to internet is basically mild cataplexy. I know that my mother has this weakness too and she is always tired so there could be a genetic link.
As interesting trivia it seems like narcolepsy is an autoimmune illness that works by killing neurons producing hypocretin which is neuropeptide responsible for regulation of sleep and wakefulness, and for hunger management. There are only about 100k - 200k hypocretin producing neurons, while brain has orders of magnitude more neurons. That I find interesting, because it seems like this autoimmune process is very selective for these hypocretin producing neurons, cause so far it seems like people with narcolepsy don't have similar cognitive deficits as people with other autoimmune illnesses that kill neurons.
And yes, she does seem to do it right in my ear. My 32db NRR earplugs help bring that down to a tolerable level, but only when I’m wearing them. And I can’t wear them 24x7.
In my early twenties I experimented with lucid dreaming for a bit; since then I never had sleep paralysis episodes but I do not know if it is connected; it is entirely possible that getting older awareness is just suppressed more while sleeping (apparently you dream less as you get older).
The first time I went through it I had no idea what was going on and for the ~60 seconds that it lasted I went from thinking if this was really happening to whether I would be able to tell my family I loved them again. The subsequent 3 or 4 times I experienced it (after extensive research following the first episode) I repeated the thought that this was temporary and would go away soon forcefully until it in fact did after 60-90 seconds.
I know this is an evolutionary defense mechanism our brain/brain stem have developed over time, but wow is it awful if you ever go through it.