What I have found is a million times better than any drugs any doctor can prescribe.

I used to do this exact same thing, until I got my anxiety under control. If your anxiety keeps you from sleeping every night, that's abnormal and treatment can help you, not just with sleep but with your whole day. Treatment doesn't necessarily mean drugs. I'm definitely projecting, and make your own choices obviously, but in your post I definitely see myself a year ago before I started dealing with my underlying problem.