Think it’s quite normal to have issues as a phase of life. Regular Suicidal thoughts is however something to take seriously. But dealing with issues for me took breaking a bad pattern and progressively working towards a better goal. Earl nightingale “the strangest secret” is worth watching... for me what he speaks has become true. Things I know for a fact takes bad thinking away is Changa but it’s something you either neeed to educate yourself in very thoroughly or have guidance. Most other drugs are too dangerous for most especially if you are in a fragile state. Breaking bad patterns can be things like getting away from a girlfriend, having a new job, getting a new interest, o finding the place where people will listen to you ... for me slacklining did wonders as it’s almost like meditating.