Thank you kind soul. I don’t think I am suicidal.
My father did that to us when I was 17. I will not do that to my kids.
I am just so tired.
Suicide IS hereditary, please get some help! Wishing you the best!
Re:Ask HN: What’s wrong with me
by gremlinsinc on Sunday June 10, 2018 @06:09PM
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It's actually even contagious.. when those you know commit suicide or even celebrities - it makes it seem easier to those around you. I've been struggling for the past year, myself with major depression, and I know when Chester Benngington (Linkin Park) died, for awhile it seemed like it wouldn't be such a bad idea, myself.
I had a brand new baby though, and every time I felt full of despair, I'd go and hold him for a bit. It helped bring me out, or at least give me a reason to live a bit longer till, my mood swung in the other direction.
I don't know the extent of what you're going through, but it can always get better.