I thought linking to other self posts was against the rules...is it allowed? I was also advised by several people to post early in the week and morning for best traffic. Friday evening seems the worst time to start new and this post will be dead by tomorrow. I've been agonizing over how and when to post for a while now as it's my hail mary and it is just such an all encompassing misery. Facing actually laying my soul bare and fearing the judgement is making me terribly anxious. I am also panicking over edits and fearing missing the mark or just annoying people with the hopelessness Im feeling even though I've tried to temper it.