I had casual thoughts about death, never thinking about it particularly. I am an atheist so the whole afterlife thing was not there. But of course I was not particularly comfortable with the thought.

I then had minor surgery which required full anesthetics. I was looking at the anesthetist who said "ok, shall we start?" and I tried not to sleep. I blinked and opened my eyes in another room. I had a complete blackout, like if time did not happen during the surgery.

I thought "this is what death looks like". I am not afraid of death anymore. I will just close my eyes and this will be the end.