> and it never harms anyone anyway.

the risk of harm is low, but some people experience increased distress after mindfulness.

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/jan/23/is-mind...

I was also going to reply there same. Meditation/Pranayam is far better than plain old pray to God.

There is definately some thing to gain and nothing to lose.

Thanks. I don't know why you're getting downvoted so much. Meditation definitely won't hurt, I've been wanting to try it.

I've been through a similar experience to what you've described, starting a bit over 10 years ago. It took till about 5-6 years ago to find useful answers and beneficial treatments. It's taken till the past 2-3 years for real recovery to happen, and it's still ongoing. Meditation has been one item in my tool kit, but several other practices have beneficial too (some mainstream, some heterodox, some physical/medicinal/nutritional, some emotional).

After 10+ years of working with this stuff in myself and others, I've learned to be very careful about what practices to undertake and what advice to offer others, so I won't share anything more here, but feel free to email me (address in profile) if you want some pointers.

Though it's 'net upvotes' right now, I can understand people's apprehensions about this. A lot of people still think it's some sort of a quackery or just plain useless, but a considerable amount of actual research has gone into it by some of the top universities and most have found only benefits.

This article is from a famous and long time Stanford Researcher on the same (who's also studying the effects of meditation on war veterans for quite some time along with other studies):

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/feeling-it/201309/20-sc...

Most of the research has serious flaws.

http://www.newsweek.com/mindfulness-meaningless-word-shoddy-...

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/wheres-the-proof-...

There are many meditation techniques and you should try different ones. If I may suggest a starting point, take a look at Vipassana. I am not sure if you’re up for a 10 day retreat but look at dhamma.org and check if there are any local chapters around you who might help you in this specific case.

I have done two 10 day courses and served in one over the last four years and my first one almost 7 years ago. It was an experience of a lifetime. But be warned though, it is not for the casual lets-check-this-out minded. Do it if and when you’re serious about it.

If you are looking for recommendations, I am finding the OAk app to be very useful.