Same here.. I made a comment somewhere saying the same as you, but I feel like I'm in the middle of the thing your looking back at.

I really do feel like a junky, that has found a pile of whatever it needs and the world encourages me to get better in 'using' and keeps paying me more to get higher and higher.. it's such a strange 'unethical' feeling.. I'm programming for about 8 years now in full throttle, and it keeps feeling stranger.. I'm somehow glad others experience it also...