My feeling is that when a topic of discussion finally comes along that you perhaps didn't even realize your mind has been working on for a long time, it just pours out of your fingers like magic.

Well, thank you guys, I appreciate that!

While it falls short of magic, I suspect, obviously, I've had a lot of opportunity to reflect on why and how I screwed up, to go through cycles of blaming myself, blaming others, chalking it up to "shit happens" cosmic randomness, etc., and ultimately to settle on some sort of stable interpretation. I was looking for love in all the wrong places, as the country song goes...