Thank you for writing this out. Your feelings mirror mine to a 't'. I have a Masters in EE from an American university and had to take 2 math classes [applied math I & II] to pass - boy was it a slog!

Long story short - sites like betterexplained.com have done a better job re-igniting my interest in math again.

Pardon me if you are someone famous that I should know - but you write well (not being glib/facetious). I didn't see a blog in your profile but I would read it were it to be featured.