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thanks, random internet friend, you too! things like this are what makes life good every now and again...

I mean, genuinely, i'm thinking about it right now, however i had a serious heroin habit until recently.

for heroin it's ... hard to describe? one thing about heroin though is it is motivating as hell, at least in terms of motivation to _obtain heroin_ and you're going to do stuff that ranges from ill advised to ... very ill advised? anyway, thing i discovered is that if you stop taking the stuff, it takes a long time to find a replacement motivation. e.g. found myself waking up, discovering i didn't have an immediate need for heroin, and then, well that's it. nothing important to do here. it was ... annoying? fucking terrible? still is, so there's that.

yeah, cocaine doesn't have the awesomest rep either - a crack addiction is just another way of temporarily getting away from something problematic.

probably me, although i can't remember the password to that account, so you'll have to take my word for it. but yeah, from a perspective of a couple years on, heroin addiction is fucking terrible. i mean, heroin's nice and all, but i was an idiot ;)