obviouslyfake

Besides hygiene and health, don't even want to attempt the rest

If nobody likes me because of that, then let them, i'm not a product that needs to match all the checkboxes

I am, but i don't know anyone who could use my help

and why would they want me to help them and not somebody else?

> Guide local undergrads in learning web dev

How is this useful for society? It's only useful for consulting companies, so they could sell their labour as a product at extreme markups

> What are your metrics for your impact-focused pursuits?

The amount of people benefitting from my work

> And what drugs are you on

Antidepressants

Certainly it wouldn't feel better, but what i was implying that no amount of money has cured my misery and unhappiness

I'm freelancer and have a startup

But i don't find that fulfilling anymore

My entire life is making others rich, i'm tired being a cog

What made it better for you?

At this point i feel like it's bottomless

There is no light at the end of the tunnel, it's only getting darker and darker day by day

I contribute to open-source, that's the only thing i would be proud of, besides not hurting anybody in any way including myself

Instead of going through this and fixing my life, i'm outsourcing it on pills

But why should i be fighting? What for? More money? What's the goal of fighting?

The saddest thing is that nobody seems to understand having depression is not my choice

I don't want to be depressed no more than anyone else

I don't want to be that person of which everyone thinks as depressed, it hurts

This is honestly a good idea and it sucks to admit that my sleep cycles are a complete chaos

Well over a year ago, but i kept going regardless and just pretended to have a life

I've read that book and have recommended it myself

Yet i feel too anxious to go out of my comfort zone

Hobbies keep me distracted, but my motivation doesn't last very long

I've read Alan Watts, the Stoics and Buddhism stuff

I tried going to Church, to seek community, but i can't pretend i'm religious when i'm not

I have called everyone in my area, many times, nobody could give me an appointment

Already on drugs, but taking them makes me feel more shit, because then i have a thought that i'm a broken person and can't live a normal live without depending on meds