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The last startup boom began in the mid-2000's (around when Y Combinator began, you can read all about it on Paul's blog), when cloud computing was still new and lowered the cost of creating online businesses. It was also in the wake of the tech bust - a lot of tech employees became unemployed.
My view is, when the layoffs complete, the dust settles and you have millions of tech workers who are willing to accept only equity, with a new technology they can rent for $200 a month from DeepSeek or Anthropic or OpenAI, we may see the green shoots of a new wave of disruption.
These days, he may even use a brick robot to automate bricklaying, and still be interested in the mortar used.
Same for software ?
I'm exploring using Django Channels to send data to visualisation SPA's in realtime. https://channels.readthedocs.io/en/latest/
Let's take this further. Let's say there's a Googler looking down on you for not working in Google - there's a Googler looking down on that person for working on a "low priority" project. If there's a Googler looking down on someone for working on the "wrong" project, then someone's looking down that Googler for selling their life 50 hours a week at a time. Everyone is looked down on in some manner - even Warren Buffet or Bill Gates who might be looked down upon for being old. It never ends.
Anyway, there's nothing you can do about it - except to stop looking down on "mid tier conference", "second tier" hires, "2nd or third tier companies", and that would help a lot. It would improve the world only marginally but it would do tremendous good for yourself. It's your act of looking down on others that's causing your anxiety of being looked down upon. The injury originates from your own thoughts to others.
Pick any thing in the world, for certain dimensions (height, length, attractiveness, intelligence, etc...) and you can put it on the "negative" end, and make disparaging comments against it, or you can put it on the "positive" end and give it praise. Once you've placed it on the "negative" end of the scale, the "positive" end suddenly comes into existence. And once you've placed it on the "positive" end, a whole swarth of other objects now fall on the "negative". If we praise a Googler for getting into Google, suddenly we see less value in engineers who did not get into Google. If we disparage a person for being short, then we see more value in others who are tall. Both are different sides of the same coin. Refrain from criticism and praise. It's the act of comparing that leads us to suffer. Would you rather be the "top Googler" and so miserable to be entertaining suicidal thoughts, which to me looks like where you're heading if you continue thinking the way you are, or a someone who is much more happy with whatever he's doing than doing what straw man Googler's do?
And please see a doctor.
So I'd go for "embark on a spiritual journey into your own mind".
My life is completely different than 4-5 years ago. Most of the acquaintances I knew then probably think I've gone nuts, (and IMO selfish to show them how good my life is now), but my best friendships have become even better; I really like where I am right now in my life - every day I wake up and enjoy it - At this point in my life I've spirituality, health, family, finance all sorted. I've met hundreds or thousands of people in my life, have not met anyone else who've got these four things together as well as has happened to me yet (except my wife) - and I don't know if it will last; but it all started when I started poring over those poems.
Anyway - most people these days tend towards an atheist/rationalist point of view and have no interest in books on spirituality & religion from 2000+ years ago, and if you did not ask the question I would not have written this comment. I do hope it helps you on your way.
But if I were you I'd save up for a few years, throw away my career and work as a Ski instructor for a year or two anyways just to see how bad it turns out.
It's one thing to hear from others how extreme steps are unlikely to lead to a good outcome, and how we are trading one set of problems for another, but it's quite another to never have taken extreme steps in life and wonder "what if"?
Then once you're through with skiing, come back to programming. :)
Take the job, work a couple of years, then go Ski to your heart's discontent.
But if, say, a foreigner use a machine tool to carve one such stone in 3 days and transport it into the island to sell it to the residents, it's not going to be worth much, compared to the stone that's been in one of their families for decades, and where a few years ago they did a ritual with their son with it.
Going further, if said foreigner marries into a local family, and then performs a ritual with his first born son, in front of the newly crafted stone, the ritual involving the whole village, suddenly the stone that didn't have value, would now be valuable and accepted in trade. And later on, if now grown-up son's child commits a mistake and harms another family, that stone can then be offered as an apology.
It has a corollary to our own currency, but the values they represent are different - in our society, currency represents the values of "productivity", "offering what people want" and "cleverness".
Anyway, that's my speculation.