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Yes, thanks for the input. I will be putting 12 - 14 hour work days from now. Life is hard but I will have to suck it up. I already have 3 yrs of experience. My managers are extremely puzzled with me. I am getting passed from one team to another like a hot potato. Pretty demoralizing. But, I will do whatever it takes and try to stay on top at work.

Dear HN,

Apart from the above question. I have one last question that weighs on my mind a lot all the time. I would appreciate any input from HN.

I am a male and around 28. Is it worth for people like me to get into a relationship of any kind? I know it for a fact that I will make the life of people around me very miserable. Is it morally right to pass on my genes and make the life of the next generation miserable too?

I do have some good qualities though. The only positive out of ADHD for me is the insane creativity, the ability to inspire people a lot, empathy etc.. perpetual idea generation etc.

I came across his videos before. I don't like that much personally because he is so negative, judgmental, cynical and cocky. But I watched this and it confirms all the issues that I deal with on a day to day basis.

I should probably go into consulting where there are more immediate consequences or go into business myself working on my own startup where I am in control.

My colleagues already comment on how I am hardly at my desk. Thanks for the link, I will make it a point to watch all his videos and try to address them.

I knew this! I am pretty strong and quick at math/calculus etc. The reason being that I over practiced while learning it.

Looks like I have to do the same now. Simply spend lots of hours after work and focus on being mechanical. It is pretty depressing right, why should I struggle so much when everybody else is having it easy?

But at-least I am passionate about technology/business and hopefully massive repeated practice will pay off. I was reading wikipedia article after your comment and it turns out people with Alzheimer's can remember after a lot of repetition. At-least, I am grateful that I don't have Schizophrenia or something like that.

Hi HN/Paul,

Thanks for taking the time to respond. I do have ADHD. I got the diagnosis and I have medication prescribed. But, I have strong internal resistance towards taking medication. I realize I have no choice and took some today. I keep thinking if Teddy Roosevelt had ADHD he would spend all his time on working out, eating perfectly nutritious food and use whatever natural means there is to beat it.

I took around 2 to 3 vipassana meditation courses. It was brutal but it helped me focus for a few months (4 to 5 months) but afterwards I slowly reverted back.

I have strong entrepreneurial inclinations. I simply see too many possibilities. I am not very detail oriented. Should I play to my strengths or simply suck it up and rewire my brain through hard work. What if I don't have ADHD but I am simply a very creative individual? I know I am very creative. All my thoughts are out of the box. My problem solving approach is pretty wild and not straight and linear like everybody else.

I am afraid that the medication will dissolve some brain tissue and I will end up being dependent on it eventually. I don't think logically that clearly but I am very intuitive. Do you think if I get my attention under control I can think more logically? Sorry for too many questions. I am in a desperate place right now.

Should I just pound the pavement and talk with local business people and see if they want to get some work done?

I want to pitch to local businesses and see if I can build for them websites, mobile applications. Integrate any software solutions that will help their business.

Just with myself and slowly get more people aboard. I have a full time job and I want to go ahead once I am confident with my technical skills. I want to do a light weight version of Pivotal/Thoughtbot.