elixanchor
Something to play with while you wait!
each meeting can be quite different. i had to try 10-20 of them in my city to find a few that were on my wavelength.
i don't attend aa meetings as often as i used to in early sobriety, but i still go if i have a friend that's struggling and want to open this resource to them.
at every meeting, there are things that people say that resonate and things that are cringe-worthy or even inflammatory.
part of the meditation and process is being able to be hear and react to everyone's words with equanimity.
i tried a number of things over many years (life coach, therapy, meditation retreats, ayahuasca, ibogaine, etc).
i reached a bottom, and nothing i had tried really worked or stuck. kept relapsing after a few months of sobriety at most.
ultimately it was going to AA that i largely credit to my successful transformation into a happy life of sobriety.
if you're not sure if it's right for you and struggling with addiction, i highly recommend having an open mind, and trying 90 meetings and 90 days. see how you feel after. it's the daily practice that is transformative.
there is something powerful about being focused on a purpose with a group of similarly motivated people.
the people in the rooms of AA understand the challenge you're facing in a way that friends and family often don't.
you quickly realize that the 'higher power' thing is a pretty easy to move beyond, regardless of your religious orientation. a 'higher power' can even be a conceptual device - e.g. the wisdom of the people in your meeting who have achieved a life of sobriety.
it's also not to say that AA in itself is a savior. it's a healthy component to integrate as part of a balanced recovery of body, mind, and spirit.
eating well, exercising often, and finding ways to be helpful are other important pillars to incorporate along your journey.
good luck, be well.