anxiouspete

I too have been struggling with this a lot recently. I get myself into a state of high panic/stress, seemingly over nothing, and find it very difficult to get back down.

It doesn't interrupt my sleep all that much but it completely ruins my waking hours. I have to be very mindful not to let those thoughts creep into my head but sometimes I loose the battle.

Stay strong and don't give up!

Which when you think about it is absurd really. Here we are in this open plan office that is meant to encourage communication and collaboration and yet we're communicating over Slack because we don't want to disturb our other colleagues.

I keep coming back to "To Kill A Mockingbird" and "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo". I'd say these are my two favourite books!

No, it won't. Anxiety lasts long after the actions have been made and the initial threat eliminated because a lot of people with anxiety disorders will tend to ruminate on their actions and possibly even catastrophize about them, creating to a whole different kind of anxiety that are at times unactionable. This is how people end up with PTSD.

I've been trying very hard to break out of this cycle and can tell you first hand it's not in anyway beneficial or pleasant and is actually very very destructive.

I'm kind of the opposite. I have a very good salary now at a young age, but I feel that I'm losing my youth. In many ways I would half my current salary to not be stuck in an office writing CRUD - but then I think about all the flexibility my salary provides and go the other way. It's a hard choice

Like the others said, our JVM apps would require at least 1GB for the JVM and then 1-4GB for heap, depending on the service. This made the average JVM service require about 4GB of RAM in the container scheduler.

Meanwhile our Go services almost never had a working set larger than 256MB and most didn't even need that. We could schedule on average 16 Go services for each JVM service.

Of course it's not, but the difference here is that OP isn't made insolvent, or forced to sell their home, to pay their hospital bill.

Unless Tesla can get the weight down of the Roadster 2 it doesn't have a chance beating the GT2-RS or the Huracan Perfomante.

I get back my original salary with this calculation.

75,000 / 2000 = 37.5 (average 2000 work hours PA)

37.5 * 2 = 75

Add three 0 and 75,000

I did exactly this. Joined a big US tech company that I had put on a pedal stool for years. It's nothing like I imagined. Code is poor, documentation is poor, office interaction is poor. It's thrown me into this place of depression and unfulfillment that I don't know how to get back. Every day I go to work and think "is this what working at one of the best tech companies is meant to be like?".

No, not at all. It's good to vent! I hope your wife can find herself at ease soon. It's fucking shit to be like this